March 17, 2012
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My dad past away
10:25 am:
Aunt: Kathy, I have some bad news for you. Your dad past away.
Me: What who’s dad??!!! (still half awake in bed)
Aunt: Your dad.
Me: *Silence*What followed after that phone call was a lot of thinking and reflection. And regretfulness. I really was stupid enough to go on skype and type a bunch of messages that I knew would never reach his person ever again. The last time he tried to call me was March 6, 2012. I wasn’t able to answer. But I didn’t call him back either. Because I thought he was fine and that there would be lots of time for us to communicate when he comes over in the summer for my convo. Why? Why so sudden? Why does things always have to go wrong when things just seem to be getting better? And then I thought back to last week’s Ethos sharing. One of the ladies kept on reminding us of a verse in the bible, “For I know the plans I have for you.” So what are the plans? What are the plans? What are the plans???
My dad was a jolly, tender-hearted, and kind soul. But I didn’t have the chance to know about him better before he past away. What was going to be a full family photo for my convocation will be once again a photo of just me and my mom. Vulnerable is the word that I can describe of myself right now. But I must trust God with all my might. Must. I’m sad but perhaps at the end of my life on earth God will explain every single detail that happened in my life and tell me why things happened the way it did. I’m sad but I thank God for having given me the chance to at least re-unite with him a few years ago. I’m sad but I’m thankful that God had let us have a confession to each other about our true feelings for all these years and I was able to forgive him from the bottom of my heart. I’m sad. But.
February 18, 2012, Skype:
Mark Tse:
“Dear Kathy, glad to hear from you, I call your home by phone several times, but could’nt talk to you, either no answer or your mom said you were in the bathroom. I miss you so !
[12-02-18 3:41:55 AM] mark tse: How is everything, I know that you are working now and me too working hard and hope I can earn a lot before I come for your big day !”Dad. How I wish you really could come.
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Comments (1)
Kathy, my heart goes out to you. I know there’s not a lot I could do or say… but know that you are in my prayers.