January 7, 2012

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    一個一個他們都要回家了。一個一個我要跟他們說再見了。真的會再見吧，對不對？

    Someone once said, with love comes hurt. The two can never be apart. So when you're ready to love you're also ready to expose yourself to any kind of hurt possible. In friendships I think one of the hurts would be seeing friend's come and go in your life. At one time in your bus ride, the bunch of you rode on the travel together. You saw the same scenery, caught a glimpse of each other's back seat, and maybe had a nice chat here and there. But eventually we all have to get off at different bus stops, maybe a few will accompany you in your first few stops and next few bus rides but never exactly the same. I guess it's the same with all kinds of other relationships too, but with friendships you experience the pain to another degree...something like bitter sweet because you know maybe you'll have the chance to see them again but maybe everything won't be the same anymore...for better or for worse...who knows?

    Still, with love and hurt also comes strength and weakness. I remember telling a friend yesterday how I feel weird because I haven't cried at all ever since people started leaving from Lund. I told her I thought I was cold blooded. And she told me it's probably I handle the situation differently. Perhaps I don't cry because I don't feel like this is really goodbye? Perhaps I will miss them but I know someday somehow I will see every single one if them once again. Or perhaps, Im just unconsciously building up everything for my own leave on January 23...maybe on the plane I'll cry like crazy like I did on the ride here halfway through.

    Alas, the sun will shine at the end of the storm and the light blue sky will awaken me up to a new chapter in life :) . Keep up the spirit girl. Keep up the spirit.