December 4, 2011

  • 今天，我哭了。哭了因為太感動了，哭了，因為太捨不得這裡了，哭了，因為祂在愛著我，深深地愛著我，一直都在愛著我。Today as I attended Sunday service, an overseas missionary came to share about his encounter with Jesus and how He came to serve children after His calling. He said there's a difference between a love for God and having a connection with God. He said, we can always love God but not know Him personally. We can read the bible and marvel at Him but until the moment we truly have a conversation with him we won't know Him or who He really is.

    Do I know Him?

    Kristina seemed a littler upset today because its her last day attending service before she travels and goes back to California. As we sat together during the last part of worship, tears just started swelling on the brink of my eyes and I find myself crying deeply. Moments before one of the members of the congregation had asked all of the international students to stand up and the whole congregation prayed for us. The prayer was brief yet it touched my heart deeply and reminded me why I was here in the first place. They prayed that we would have the holy spirit within us ignited in flames all of our lives, that we would continue to understand and believe and remember that we were here in Lund in from the beginning because God wants to change us and send us back out into the world. They prayed that we would hear God's voice deeply and that God would guide us and show us our future. They prayed that God will show us visions, through dreams and spectacular miracles that we were meant to be missionaries in the future.

    Missionaries. Can that be? How can that be? Me? No way.

    So I sat there crying for quite some time in silence, both me and Kristina bending our heads, praying, marvelling, and comforting each other.

    What are His plans? How great is our God? I truly love this place. Because its here that I learn very very much.

    Psalm 27:4

    One thing I ask from the Lord, this only do I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze on the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple.