July 28, 2011

Its a really good time for me to leave right now. This trip I've been waiting for for10 months. As I think back to the past year and a half, a lot has happened...maybe more than I've ever wanted. Its time for me to go on this trip so I can discover who I really am, and perhaps, in the process of doing so, love myself more.

These past few days I've been talking with a few friends of mines, and they have let me know that they think this is the perfect time for me to leave for Sweden too. I've always wondered how God could plan times to be exact at some moments. Just when this happen that happens too. My life is like a drama where the story unfolds excitedly this way and that, something like a roller coaster. My ups and downs are affected by major events happening in my life, and through them, I've learned about almost everything imaginable: Sickness of a loved one, re-unions, forgiveness, family warmth, family scars, love, heartbreaks, dilemmas in friendships, coping with stress, standing up for myself, workplace troubles, exploration, strength, and weaknesses.

A pastor once told me, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I hope that's really true. I hope I can really become stronger. Despite of how I feel I really do hope that I can conquer everything and that when I come back I will be someone new. who? I can't really imagine. I just...

maybe want to become a soul surfer?